Learn to love yourself first, instead of loving the idea of other people loving you.
I told a guy that I didn’t think it was very attractive that he smokes weed and cigarettes. I didn’t know he did at first because he never does around me. But I found out in a stupid way that not even he wanted me to find out. I asked him if it “helps him” or makes him feel good. And he answered back by asking me if drinking helps me and makes me feel good.
I felt damn near hypocritical. But I thought about it, and yes. It DOES help me feel good. So if his answer was yes, I could understand. I have friends who do the same and that doesn’t make me any less close to them.
But in the end, I’m still turned off by the fact that he does that. Not because I’m judging him or think he’s different now. But because I simply do not like it. The smell, the taste, the headache it gives me.. And I just can’t be around that. Lol, wtf I’m not even dating the nigga.
No. Hell no. You are not my friend. Don’t pretend to be. Don’t talk to me like you are. Just don’t talk to me. I mean, really- don’t talk, period. Your fakeness is embarrassing.
“I’m sorry. I’m complicated. You don’t have to deal with me, but you’re obviously still around. So I’m going to make an effort. Even if I have to crash and burn a couple times, to get it right.”
I’m sorry to sound like a total loser but forehead kisses… holy shit. They’re like a whole new world of amazing.
Oh? Well then guess I’m shit out of luck because it looks like we were “doing it wrong” then and it’s a GOOD thing we broke up, isn’t it? Yeah. Thanks. You’re an awesome friend. Honesty at its finest. Next time tell me more about how I should run my relationships. I’ll be here with a pen and paper.
I feel like I’ve been changing so much these past few weeks. Not sure it’s something I should be proud of.
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?
And trust me, this is me actually giving a shit. I’m telling you to leave me alone because I care. And honestly more about you than I do for myself.
A slave to your love.
In an instant, it all changed.
So shut the fuck up.